作词 : 晗烁
作曲 : 晗烁
I cannot look back At the life I had When I first realized That I am different I would not think back When the truth unpacked I walked onto this track Without a choice I didn’t know how I could move When everyone would disapprove But now I know I never should It wasn’t good It was darkness without an ending It was devastating I turned around in the darkened black There was no way back I woke up with head-splitting pain Looked up I saw the violent rain on my knees felt like deceased I didn’t know how to do it again My world was already caving in When I was suffocating within couldn't move I couldn't think I didn’t know where I had been When I closed my eyes I felt like dying Monsters under my bed I couldn’t sleep I didn’t know how I could move When everyone would disapprove But now I know I never should It wasn’t good It was darkness without an ending It was devastating I turned around in the darkened black There was no way back I woke up with head-splitting pain Looked up I saw the violent rain on my knees felt like deceased I didn’t know how to do it again My world was already caving in When I was suffocating within couldn't move I couldn't think I didn’t know where I had been When I looked around I could see nothing But the monsters I've been dreaming About in my nightmares I don't want to be here I have no one who is being who I can talk to about my feeling So when my world collapsed I had to suck it all up I woke up with head-splitting pain Looked up I saw the violent rain on my knees felt like deceased I didn’t know how to do it again My world was already caving in When I was suffocating within couldn't move I couldn't think I didn’t know where I had been